Last night scared me

I did something wrong.
Careless and wrong.
I wasn't being considerate or honest with myself.
Fake, faggot, stupid, dumb, oblivious, ignorant can describe the lewd demeanor that I opted last night. He was being trenchant and he wasn't going let anything stay in his mind. All was coming out and no feelings were spared. After much effort and consideration, a discussion emerged and a rather good problem solving was the conclusion. I was still sad. I was angry at myself. Once again, I let the one person I'd give away my life for down. I just love him so much. He really knows how to take good care of me. I feel like the more time I spend with him the more I become a better person. I learn so many valuable lessons with him, it's amazing really. He truly makes me try harder to better my disposition in life.